4 Months After

It's hard to believe I've been single again for four months now. Dabbling in dating is bleh to date. The one good thing is for the first time, I'm able to be a friend to my ex. Somehow, this signals growth and maturity to me. That we can be friends, without the awkwardness and ambiguity. He's a good man, I think I'm a good guy. I AM a good guy and we just are no longer lovers. And that's ok. No need for either of us to be the baddie after the break-up. I think that bodes well. Psychologically, I believe I've really done the forgiving of the past and am bringing very little baggage forward in my life.

This is an odd time of year around dating and relationships. It's such a cauldron since the human gene pool is wired to couple, cuddle and stay warm. The parties and gatherings are filled with an urgency. People get drunker, the family hearth and all that either drive some insane or folks become too open too soon in that drugged state of ecstacy about the peace and love of the holidays.

For some reason New York seems filled with mania this year. It must be some post-traumatic reaction to Sandy and the fiscal cliff and an uncertainty about the days ahead. An impending sense of something just off.

Well, hardly the best time to start something new, I'd say. So for today, I'm just taking in life as it flows. There are dear friends and my amazing family members. I can love them as I do, and let them love me. There lies the focus this holiday season.