What an amazing wonderful journey
Life is a delightful adventure. There's nothing but good in the world I've decided. I thought there may be good and bad, but I'm wrong. We fall in and out of love, as waves roll in the ocean. Sometimes the love is forever, sometimes the tide runs out.
This relationship journey from first date, first kiss, first sleepover, the putting of things in a drawer at my lover's place, the dreams and plans for living together, the meeting of family members, the trajectory of love and sex and friendship and memories that last a lifetime... I thought this would continue towards a home together, a wedding, anniversary rings, a treasured honeymoon, old age sitting by a fire one day in Maine. Stories to tell my godson about the love that lasted a lifetime, rather than just over a year. The experiences that teach me how to be in a monogamous, loving, honest, kind partnership, I will never give up or let go. These are what give life its zing and color.
I love that we went through this. I'll treasure it forever. However, he sat me down today and said it's over. April 2, 2011 to July 28, 2012. It was an amazing love story for just shy of one year and four months. And it's raw and tender and sad and tons of intermingled feelings, just as the tears that come down.
I'll merge the energy into the swim stroke in the pool as I build muscles to endure and enjoy the triathlon ahead. I'll pull my friends close and focus on the projects at hand at work. I'll draw my mentors into huddles to form safe coping mechanisms, because I deserve that.
Nothing's lost: nor time, nor money, nor energy, nor love, nor emotion--all is, I believe as it should be. And this experience is a teacher filled with lessons to unpack and learn. I'm am incredibly blessed by having had this journey with this man. I bless him and treasure him at this moment of esquisite feeling and shed tears that will heal the tender places now exposed.
We loved deeply, were honest, clear, kind, leaving no wreckage. Neither of us could have asked for more in this. He is brave to share honestly, we are beloved to have loved each other and to part in kindness. There's no way to force love.
Love well.
This relationship journey from first date, first kiss, first sleepover, the putting of things in a drawer at my lover's place, the dreams and plans for living together, the meeting of family members, the trajectory of love and sex and friendship and memories that last a lifetime... I thought this would continue towards a home together, a wedding, anniversary rings, a treasured honeymoon, old age sitting by a fire one day in Maine. Stories to tell my godson about the love that lasted a lifetime, rather than just over a year. The experiences that teach me how to be in a monogamous, loving, honest, kind partnership, I will never give up or let go. These are what give life its zing and color.
I love that we went through this. I'll treasure it forever. However, he sat me down today and said it's over. April 2, 2011 to July 28, 2012. It was an amazing love story for just shy of one year and four months. And it's raw and tender and sad and tons of intermingled feelings, just as the tears that come down.
I'll merge the energy into the swim stroke in the pool as I build muscles to endure and enjoy the triathlon ahead. I'll pull my friends close and focus on the projects at hand at work. I'll draw my mentors into huddles to form safe coping mechanisms, because I deserve that.
Nothing's lost: nor time, nor money, nor energy, nor love, nor emotion--all is, I believe as it should be. And this experience is a teacher filled with lessons to unpack and learn. I'm am incredibly blessed by having had this journey with this man. I bless him and treasure him at this moment of esquisite feeling and shed tears that will heal the tender places now exposed.
We loved deeply, were honest, clear, kind, leaving no wreckage. Neither of us could have asked for more in this. He is brave to share honestly, we are beloved to have loved each other and to part in kindness. There's no way to force love.
Love well.
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