Routines

So a year and almost a month ago, I had no idea how this would play out--this then new connection. And here we are contemplating all the things that folks after a year start to think about as we build our lives together with another. Do we move in together and where? Do we stay at our current jobs or do we get jobs close to each other too? If we live together, what kind of space will it be? What's essential to have in amenities, transportation choices, water pressure, furniture...? These are the kind of conversations that can cause stress and anxiety and we've decided to take them on slowly. It's as if we're testing the water, then we go back to the beach and lay down for a bit, go for a walk and then touch the ocean of going deeper into our commitment to each other again. Repeat.

It's going well. I'm so glad to be with a man who knows the sensitivities of building a relationship together. We have first the foundation of deeply, truly, caring for each other. We both have moments of looking at the other man and saying, "yup that's my boyfriend, he brings the crazy, and I love him anyway." We're starting to see each other in fuller ways--we see all the things that drew us in almost beyond control, and now we also see the things that bother us, annoy us, endear us, touch our vulnerable places... We see and desire the greatest good for each other: we see our potential to be more fully realized and we encourage and support each other. Sometimes it feels pushy and instructive--the support--and we're learning how to back off when we push too tender places.

It's getting real. And more and more, we love each other. An adventure I treasure, bringing vibrant color to a good life.