FB status "In a Relationship"
I know I'm going to get it from some of my peeps. They're going to say it's too early after 5 weeks of dating to call this a relationship. Or is that my inner critic? inner parent? inner grown up? For now the inner teenager is delighted. Boyfriend.
And of course jumped on FB to call it, "in a relationship." Love it.
Reality: I have felt this way only one other time in my life and it lasted 6 1/2 years. It was a powerful connection with another human being. And the world seemed brighter, lighter, easier to navigate. What was incredibly stressful and impossible seemed possible. Birds, flowers, blue skies, and this numbed sense of bliss about the world.
Watching TruBlood episode two after she drinks deeply of the vampire whose thoughts she cannot read and Sookie's senses are enhanced, and though over-acted, she develops a forthrightness and a deliberate attitude to anyone who questions her headlong dive into exploring something new.
I feel that. I dive into this, hoping for the best: dreaming of a long term partnership with a man who will continue as he has been, to be kind, desirable, loving, appreciative and able to sustain long bouts of searching our souls together. And silliness: pure delightful play.
If this is love, then I love love. And if this is instimacy, or anything else the other voices are saying, then I can stay grounded in reality through service to others, and showing up for the other parts of my life (volunteering to help others, doing my work well, time with family, friends, as I can in balance), so there's a safety net of care and love. I hope this is the beginning of a lifetime connection.
And of course jumped on FB to call it, "in a relationship." Love it.
Reality: I have felt this way only one other time in my life and it lasted 6 1/2 years. It was a powerful connection with another human being. And the world seemed brighter, lighter, easier to navigate. What was incredibly stressful and impossible seemed possible. Birds, flowers, blue skies, and this numbed sense of bliss about the world.
Watching TruBlood episode two after she drinks deeply of the vampire whose thoughts she cannot read and Sookie's senses are enhanced, and though over-acted, she develops a forthrightness and a deliberate attitude to anyone who questions her headlong dive into exploring something new.
I feel that. I dive into this, hoping for the best: dreaming of a long term partnership with a man who will continue as he has been, to be kind, desirable, loving, appreciative and able to sustain long bouts of searching our souls together. And silliness: pure delightful play.
If this is love, then I love love. And if this is instimacy, or anything else the other voices are saying, then I can stay grounded in reality through service to others, and showing up for the other parts of my life (volunteering to help others, doing my work well, time with family, friends, as I can in balance), so there's a safety net of care and love. I hope this is the beginning of a lifetime connection.
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